I don’t really ever have a new years resolution but I am considering what I want for myself for this year. The hardest thing for me is to live in the present moment without my mind jumping back and forth, worrying about what may or may not happen and just letting go of outcomes and solutions to problems that don’t really exist.
This is the major achievement for me for 2011: I realized that I was a control freak and I am learning to let go. My journey will continue for the rest of my life but this year marks a turning point in which I have found my voice and am going to use it. I can say what I feel without being hurtful to others or worrying that I may offend someone. The French have an expression about how you can say anything, it is just how you say it. I am allowing myself to feel. I live my emotions physically and then observe how my body reacts and feel compassion for the physical pain my emotions feel. I have a brand new outlook on every thought that crosses by mind. When I become aware of physical discomfort, I slow down and let the thought go through my mind , then let go of the thought.
I am afraid that before I did this, I could be a Wanker sometimes and still can be. Even now, when I drive, I talk to other drivers who themselves DO NOT HAVE ROAD MANNERS!